I'm sure you are all aware, those of you watching me and those of you who are on my page to see what kind of person I am, that i had been involved in a fight with a deviant named Runefaust, and that he got banned because of his abuse. I am sure you are also aware that some had tried to ban me too, or at least suspend my account due to a journal I had written for help.

Some of you are friends of Runefausts, or associate with him on that music forum, who are on my page right now to say things to me that are also offensive, or to see what kind of person I am. I don't blame you if you are a friend of his, go for your life. The fact is yes he was quite abusive to me, and yes I commented on his page after he came to mine. I know that was a no no, but his abuse towards me and my friends was what got him banned.

I did not aim to get him banned to begin with. I have lived on deviantart for 2 years without hassle, in peace, meeting people and sharing artwork, being amazed by the artwork of others. This site inspires me and lets me be me. I did not want to be challenged as a human being existance at all. That is not the right way.

In saying that I do admit, writing my journal was not the right way around things, I know it was wrong, I do hold that I wrote it in anger and distress. I have since taken the journal down.

I agree, I should probably be suspended. I do not hold anything against those who have reported me. I have met one of you and you seem like a nice person upholding the law of DA and looking ou for others. If I were you and I saw my journal I would probably have done the same thing.

So here I sit, knowing that DA is looking over any reason to which I may be banned or suspended, and I have no idea if I will be or not. So far my account is still here and I am happy about that, I would be devastated if it got cancelled. I would have DA withdrawals.

Two years, and this was my first time offense, the journal of help.

To his friends who have a major grudge against me, yes I should have ignored him and yes my stubborness got to me, but in all fairness, I was way less abusive and he was ripping into me for no reason. He hated me I did nothing wrong by him and once I appologised and asked for a truce. It wasnt like I was out to get him. And now you guys are upset and haulnig into me, I say please, this should be a discussion, not an abusive cycle. Talk to me about it, leave out the names. We are meant to be mature adults. I don't want to fight. It is not my doing getting him banned he asked for it by breaking the rules.

Yes I did ignore him back in Valerie 2. Then he came to my page and hauled abuse there.

I am sorry for my journal causing such a fuss, and for breaking the rules. First time in 2 years. I can only hope that DA will see that I am a peaceful person who had done nothing bad in the past, who has lived in peace on DA appreciating art and posting art, and give me a warning or a suspension at most.

I know what I did was wrong. You dont need to come here and abuse me. Please I would prefer a discussion. I know Runefausts mates are pissed. I can understand why, but talking with me, and not abusing me is easier on everyone.

I should take my6 own advice yes.

So I am waiting for my outcome, and I want to send love to my mates who stuck up for me. I love you guys to death. I want to appologise for my out-of-line journal. I want to ask for peace and easy living on deviantart, I want to go back to just posting artwork and viewing artwork of others, either great or small time.

I love deviantart. I have loved it for 2 years and I am qute happy here.



Alex.